I just read this today. I'm really so sorry for your loss, Jime-chan. I've never lost a pet this way before (they always run away), so I don't know how you must be feeling, but I know that losing someone you loved devotedly is heartbreaking. I don't know how to comfor you, except to say that if you need someone to vent out to, you know I'm here for you. All your fangirls are. We love you!!!